twentieth century standard bearer

"I'm sorry to be human"
"Well, don't worry about being sorry for now, can you lend me a hundred yuan for a ride home?"

Osamu Dazai x Nie Yongzhen's most sensitive and slender naked confession across time and space

"Japan's No. 1 Useless Man" faces the ups and downs of life, the most bitter but gentle wry smile
The two sides of the Taiwan Strait have been looking forward to it for ten years, and they are eager to read "Twentieth Century Standard Bearer", the original work of "I am sorry to be born as a human being", the full Chinese translation is published for the first time!

I wrote "The Standard Bearer of the Twentieth Century" in the midst of despair; but I still firmly believe that beyond despair, there must be hope. — Osamu Dazai
In the tenth year of the Showa era (1935), Osamu Dazai, who lived in Tokyo, was falling into the greatest predicament in his life.

Near-fatal peritonitis, anesthesia poisoning to suppress pain, and the embarrassment that no one knows about the work...

In such a desperate situation, Osamu Dazai picked up his pen and broke the topic with "I am sorry for being a human being". In just over ten pages, he wrote monologues, letters, dramas, romances...etc. Different brushworks are melted into one statue, faithfully presenting the self under the waves of despair, despite being full of helplessness, but never giving up lightly.

"The Standard Bearer of the Twentieth Century" is not divided into sections by "chapters" or "sections", but like a chant, with "sing" as the beginning of each section; Singing, each singing has its own uniqueness, but they are coherent with each other.

From the preface to the second, Osamu Dazai described that he wrote a book "Late Years". He thought it was a masterpiece, but was judged as worthless by the literary circles. They all called him a "clown" and raised him from a high place. above the nine heavens, into the abyss of the eighteen hells;

However, just after the bleak performance of the second song, as if sinking into the deep sea, Dazai Osamu's tone changed to gentle, describing the belonging of his heart and the soul mate he longed for; what he was looking forward to was "like a piece of dandelion". trust, comfort like a wild jasmine leaf", but always looking for such comfort and peace. This is the famous three songs, and it is also the most frequently quoted passage after "I am a human being, I am sorry".

After entering the next song, Osamu Dazai turned to a personal novel style, describing his secret love for his classmate girl Kayano when he was young; when he grew up, when he saw that Kayano had become someone's lover and an excellent When I was an artist, how upset I was with my unspeakable love;

Wuchang is a kind of self-deprecating, using the news in the newspaper that "a hotel has installed an electric bed" to mock himself because he is too honest, so he is always deceived by others, and even Amitabha can only shake his head and smile wryly.

The following seven songs until the end is another complete big story:

In order to buy a beautiful crutch, Osamu Dazai went to the editor of "Secret of Secrets" to ask for a manuscript fee, but after hitting a wall, he had to humbly say to the other party: "Although you are so rude, please let me Take this job! (It doesn’t matter if the fee is lower)”

In the end, what he wrote was a mess, and the editor severely rejected the manuscript, so he had to ask the editor for money again.

But he was told by the editor that "it really can't be used", so Dazai said with a stern face: "Then, can you lend me a hundred yuan for a ride home to the head office?" But the other party said to him: "Give me a walk back!"

Dazai wanted to save face if he couldn't borrow money, so he put on the best outfit and went to borrow money from the girl he had a crush on, Xuanye. After finally borrowing 20 bills, he looked like he wanted to accept but refused, feeling super ashamed and embarrassed. can't say...

In the end, he had no choice but to write an article "The Standard Bearer of the 20th Century" to imagine the love between himself and Ms. Kayano "embracing in the wild sand and flying", but when he returned to the real world, his dream was severely broken by his wife. After saying "That's not me at all", in the end, he could only look at the text "fleeing around like a crab, and I can't catch it", and then wept secretly.

In this "Standard Bearer of the 20th Century", Osamu Dazai fully demonstrated a "Lu Snake", the kind of person who likes people but can't say it, who is obviously poor but wants to save face...

Although this kind of Osamu Dazai is awkward, it will make people unconsciously raise the corners of their mouths when they read it.

Yes, "Twentieth Century Standard Bearer" is an image crawling in the mud of life, but still smiling with tears.

Generally, when we mention Osamu Dazai and "I'm sorry to be human", there will always be a cry of distress in our minds;

However, "The Real Osamu Dazai" tells us that life is not just sadness and shouting.

No matter how sad and how we cry, we can still pick up the beautiful crutches and face every morning with a wry smile.